The Day Where Good Deeds Aren't Really Good Deeds

I have something I need to ask from my Buddha so "we" compensate by me doing a good deed for someone else as a "thanks in advance".

First, I was forced to buy an umbrella since it was raining heavily and I really had to get home. That's what Daiso store is for, I spent $2 SGD buying a kinda crap one but who cares.

Then it came to me, wouldn't it be nice and "kinda" romantic to give it away? It's raining cats and dogs and someone could be needing an umbrella like hell now. You know, the world is oh so full of love, I should be a part of it.

Alright then, when I arrived the apartments I looked around for my potential target just like a prostitute hunting for a rich man, then he completely caught my eyes...

He is, an aging Chinese uncle waiting under the shelter with lots of boxes and bags, I thought, isn't this the perfect moment for us, god wanted this to happen, the rain, the umbrella, it's all staged, I see it so clearly now!

I walked to him with the warmest smile ever and said if he wanted to go somewhere, he can take my umbrella.

Like Rihanna once said and I quote, "ella, ella, eh, eh, eh".

He politely rejected me but Reader's Digest once said "try again before giving up" so there. I said to him, "uncle, it's okay, if you want to go somewhere you can take my umbrella, it's only 2 dollars and it's brand new."

He politely rejected me again, alright, no point asking a man for the same thing thrice so I left.

... but then it came to me, urr... maybe I said it in such a straight-forward way he might have thought I was trying to "sell him" my umbr-ella!

Look at the keywords, "only 2 dollars", "brand new", that's how people do business here.

Even I thought I was trying to sell myself the umbr-ella!

Fine fine, god will know my intention was good and I was not selling it.

I REALLY wanted to give the umbr-ella away as I have two already and the most important thing, someone else needed it that moment while I didn't. I told him "it's only 2 dollars" means it's no biggies, I don't mind giving it to someone else.

So the day goes on without a chance, until while I was at a bus stop waiting for a bus, an aging aunty asked me for direction to go to the "Kwan Im Tong" temple.

I directed her and got her into a bus, then I sort of realised she would alight at a different place... Though close to her destination but different than where I was directing her...

How stupid can I be! That's it, this good deed thing has to stop.

Just when I thought my day is coming to an end, I finally managed to do a good deed, although tiny but makes me happy.

You see, dear god, I am actually pretty kind.